Who? Me. Why? Who knows, who cares. When? August 12th 1988. What? Girl. Well there isn't so much to say about myself. I'm 16. Currently being homeschooled in my Junior year. I'm impatiently waitin to go to college in Baton Rouge Louisiana. I'll be leaving the summer of 2006. My car is awesome and I named it captain, mainly because it takes me places, but also because it has duct tape all over the driver side door. I LOVE music. Of course, I'm extremely picky when it comes to that area. I despise rap and boy bands. The best movies ever are action and drama. And weird twisted ones, like LOTR. Although, usually I'm not very patient to sit down and watch a movie. I'm in love with Frodo and Spiderman. Last but definatly not least is that I am saved by the Grace of God. He set me free from the bonds of sin. And I will forever praise His name because of what He has done for all of us.
Hannah <3
Mighty, Awesome, Wonderful. Is the Holy Cross.
Where the Lamb laid down His life.
To lift us from the fall.
Mighty is the power of the Cross.
Here in the Valley,
Walk close beside me.
Don't look back,
For love is growing vineyards up ahead.
You have called me master.
And though you're in the dark here,
Call me friend.
And call me lover and marry me for good.
Oh gaze of love so melt my pride.
That I may in Your house but kneel.
And in my brokenness to cry.
Spring worship unto Thee.
I close my eyes and I see your face.
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place.
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow.
I've never been more homesick than now.
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways.
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know.
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same.
Cause I'm still here so far away from home.
In Christ, there are no goodbyes.
And in Christ, there is no end.
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have.
To see you again.
To see you again.
OKAY. I converted to Xanga. Wow. I can't believe this day came. Anyways. Here's the link..
www.xanga.com/hanniefannie
hahah sad. I'm advertising xanga on a blog. I've had a blast with this whole blog thinger here. But it's time to move on to something more reliable. yippie.
Open the eyes of my heart lord. I want to see you.
It's been such a long time. I don't even know where to start. Well first off I want to start off by saying Happy Easter!!! Since well it is easter and all. hehe. This week has been pretty routine. We didn't have school on friday so it was awesome! WOOHOO!
Katie's birthday was on thursday!
Annie's birthday was on friday!
YAY! PARTY!!
Easter campmeeting was going on in baton rouge this week. I watched a couple services. *gulp*.. I'm so jealous. aww. So jealous.
This month has been missions month and so far we have raised 19'000.00 or around that. We still need 6'000.00 to get what we had planned. But we'll see. I got 2 CD's at the auction. yay! Speaking of which, i think i ate all the cheese at the auction last night. he-he-he-he. Yum. i love cheese.
Anyways. So friday we went to church and no one showed up so we went home and watched camp meeting. lol. Yepp, it was fun. They playedl ike my all time favorite song but i don't know how it goes. But i love it anyways. It was awesome. And of course I was like. I WANT TO MOVE. Only one year to go Hannah.. one more year! You can do ittt!!!! Maybe when I go to texas I will "accidently" have to lose my airplane ticket and steal a car and go back to baton rouge and say that i graduated from highschool and start college!!! YESS! That's what I must do. yay!
Anyways. I went shopping yesterday and just couldnt contain myself. I bought a new green skirt, a belt, blue shirt, and new nailpolish. Oh lordy. I just couldnt stop. And now.. I'm broke. Completely. I think i have like 2 dollars in my checking account and i have 1 dollar in cash. It's so special.
Me and my brother paul have a brilliant idea. I am going to make us shirts that has a picture of caleb(and this is a great picture, he looks like a moron) and under it im going to put, "I swear I'm not related." and we are going to wear them around him. And the shirts are going to be pink. Oh man they are going to be the most awesome things ever. I can't wait.
Well once again, my life is boring and stupid and nothing is ever interesting. 50 days of school left. YAY!!!! Counting down. yes!
Hannah <3
Today I got the new David Crowder Band CD. Well, I wasn't totally impressed with it. It's more techno than anything. And that's sort of distracting in worship. But other then that, it was okay. Tuesday the New Jars of Clay CD comes out. Now I am pumped for that one because it's a bunch of hymns they redid. Aww. I can't wait. I also got like 8 pairs of earrings today. Woot! I was so happy. I haven't bought earrings for such a long time, and I wanted some more casual ones that I can just wear with like t-shirts and jeans. So that's exactly what I did. Ian said I was crazy, and my mom was like, "You don't need anymore!" But it was too late, I already bought them. HEHE.
My wisdom teeth hurt so bad. It bites the side of my mouth, so I have to keep a piece of gum in there so it doesn't keep pinching my skin. But I refuse to get them pulled. So I'll just have to suffer. My eyes are starting to get really bad. So I have an eye appointment on friday. BOO. It didn't bother me for like 4 years, and now that I haven't worn my contacts, it has got much worse. Oh well. I hate putting contacts in though, and glasses are just torture.. ugly. On me at least. *sighs* Oh well.. I also had to get rid of 2 warts on my foot. Yes, you needed to know that. We were going to go to the doctor for it, but remembered that last year it costed 80 dollars for him just to get rid of it, and I went 3 times. So we decided to get the stuff thats like 20 bucks at the grocery store. We'll see how well this works. I hope it does, because it hurts my foot. =(
We got some stuff for the auction in a couple weeks. My idea was the mix of worship CD's. WOOT. Well, the David Crowder remix isn't so great, but the others are awesome. So I'm hoping that makes money for the missions thing. And then we got a coffee maker thing. My dad said he might buy it. HAHAH. Okay, not that funny. But tomorrow is a missions meal. YAY. I always love having meals at church, it's fun being with everyone! I'm going over to annie's tonight after church and we are going to watch movies. weeeee. Well, I suppose I should clean my room. It's a DISASTER. Adios.
Hannah <3
Now our God. We give you thanks. And praise your glorious name.
Tons of things have been flying through my head today. And I've had to check my whole heart in the matter. And to be honest, when I hear things that bash my family or anything like that. I get defensive. Who wouldn't? I don't understand why people just can't forgive. But when I hear things like this go on. I have to examine my heart. I have to forgive those who offend me also. It's hard though when they haven't forgiven and still is talking about your family. But I pray to God that he gives me the grace to forgive, before they even forgive. It's hard. But it's what God showed me. That even when things aren't exactly going how you wish they could. You have to forgive. Oh God help me.
Well other than that. Nothing has been happening much lately. Once again keeping busy with school and such. I can't wait till I'm done and can officially call myself a senior! WOOT. I'm just so excited to start college and everything. A new and different experience. It's exciting. Scary, but exciting.
Well, my life is boring so I don't have anything to say. But here's a list from tyler to me.. I'll share it with you!
Hannah <3
Tylers list of things to do to make your parents think you're crazy..
1. Start talking to yourself.
2. Pull their hair out.
3. Wake them up at 4 in the morning every morning..
4. Tell them you had a dream about killing the world and them too.
5. Run into walls.
6. Trip out in the middle of eating.
7. Eat their food.
8. Eat with your hands.
9. Turn in circles.
10. Sing really dumb songs while taking a bath.
11. Go under the water while taking a bath.
12. Don't wash your hair.
13. Be rude to company.
14. And pretend you dont know them everytime they come over.
15. Ask your mom and dad their names.
16. And say what are you doing in my house and crap like that.
With a world I try so hard to leave behind. To rid my self of all but love. To give and die.
Uffta. This weekend has been extremely hectic. And to be honest, I haven't even had time to just sit down and think about what all has happened. I haven't let it all soak in completely yet. It still seems like none of this is real. It just doesn't seem like someone so amazing could just be gone in an instant. Yesterday was the wake. It was pretty awful seeing him lay in there. It didn't even look like him. But how much comfort you can get in knowing that he is in heaven with God right now. How amazing. It makes me jealous. I can only imagen what his face was like when he saw God.
Wow.....
Today we went to the funeral. It was beautiful. One thing I learned from it is the amount of people he blessed and touched. And he did my very own, without his knowledge. I wish I could tell him exactly what he has done for me. It's a strange thing. I guess, it didn't even seem like he touched my life until his death. And now that he's gone, I wish I could have seen him in the light I see him in now when he was alive. Of course, I always knew how he was. Completely self-less. But, it didn't strike me until this week. How life just passes you by. And we think that we have to perfect ourselves here in worldly ways.. well, I want to gain everything in God's eyes that I can. Not to impress the world. Because when I die, I'm looking forward to seeing Christ.. not for people to remember me for any worldly thing. I want people to remember me as someone like Doug. And I know of course that I could never live up to what he did, but he is definatly a role-model that I have never even thought about until now.
So other than all of that life has been somewhat normal. Tomorrow is a monday. I hate mondays so much. It's just the beginning of 5 whole days of work. Oh well. Only 10 weeks of school left! AMAZING. I'm so excited!!!!
Well, I finally got music on my blog! WOOT! Thanks paris for the help! It's definatly one of my favorite songs!! Here are the lyrics. Enjoy! =D
Hannah <3
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow, it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I float too high
And like Icarus, I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and die
To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans
More abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow
(To love you) Take my world apart
(To need you) I am on my knees
(To love you) Take my world apart
(To need you) Broken, on my knees
Said and done, I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe, are worlds apart
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need You now
I owe You more each passing hour
Battles between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
And wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
My sin-soaked heart, make it Yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and blow away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
Wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
Steal my heart, take the pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
Take my world apart
Well, this is lame but my computer is broken temporarily. So right now I'm using the laptop. Which SUCKS. I can't type on these things. Durr. So I don't really have anything to say. but I'm bored. I'm in a chat room with paris and ian, but they don't talk. BORING. Anyways. I got music on my website! YAY! If you can't hear it, then poo on you because you need a better computer. But just remember that its teh awesome(according to ian).
Today was pretty fun. After school I watched a video from camp. Aww...I miss it so much. Onlylike 4 months until we go though! YIPPIE. I am SO pumped. You would never believe it. I miss my friends so much. :(.
Well then after that we went to target and i developed my film and bought a tshirt that says, "I do my own stunts." and a necklace! YAY! After that we came home and hung out. Ate dinner. Did the dishes. And sat and watched ian play computer. Then i drew my art project, that was definatly entertaining. One thing I have learned from art class is to never become an artist.
Well I guess there isn't much to say, so this is going to be a short one.=D
Love you all!
Hannah <3
